Spinning in Circles, Like Dancing, But Not.

I do not know how to do the waltz but I feel like I might be starting to learn this footwork of indecisive decisions. I’ve taken the first few steps forward but in the waltz you are always pushed back as you move in a square spinning around and around again.

I might not be making a wise decision but I couldn’t help but get caught up in this dance with someone. We are in the first few stages, so I can’t say that I really like him but I can’t turn away from him and miss out on a small chance to see.

It sucks.

I do like that I might have a summer fling though, because summer flings are fun.

P.S. There were 3 drug over doses this week. Why are you people doing this to yourselves. Drugs are bad, stop poisoning your body!

P.P.S. On a much lighter note I am catering 2 weddings tonight and one of the interns at the coroner’s office will be at one of them. Small World.

P.P.P.S. Let’s Go PENS! Game 1 for the Stanley Cup Begins TONIGHT.

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Why Hello. How Were You Today?

Its so hard to become involved with someone when you know all they want is sex. Why is it always about that? Can it never be anything more?

I am not wanting to get into a serious relationship right now because I’m in the prime of my life. I have so much more out in the world waiting for me and I like to be fun and free, but can I not find one person who will care to be near me and wander what I’m doing in this day and that? Obviously not.

In this world the only thing people care about is being loved. That’s all that matters in the end. But I’m not denying that this is my fault. I push people away when they get to close. I push them away because I’m scared. I’m afraid of letting myself give. I refuse to be blind and stupid with affection because being hurt and feeling the pain to the bottom of my feet is not something I feel I can deal with. It is not easy to be broken, but is even harder to heal and move on when your chest has been ripped open and the knife is still lodged in your heart ripping through the shirt on your back.

And just for the record I am very happy for my life. I’m very happy being single, but just sometimes, every once in awhile, I just want a little something more. Is that too much to ask?

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Benefit for Breast Cancer Woot Woot!

Yeah! The benefit for breast cancer is over and done with and we have raised $1028.00. Yes. It was an awesome night and I hope everyone had as much fun as I did. It will be even better when we surprise my roomate’s family with a DVD and the check of everything we made.

And today I started my internship at the coronor’s office. How sweet is that? It was definately my best first day ever. I mean it is upsetting that people did die but I got to process my first real crime scene and everything.

My First Case Ever: An elderly woman was crossing train tracks and when she got to the other side she turned and started walking parallel to the train that was coming up behind her. It turns out that she hadn’t walked far enough across the road and the railing on the front of the train got her in the back of the head and she flew forward. When the EMT’s and police arrived on scene she was pronounced dead immediately and when I arrived with Deputy J (So we’ll call him) we got to take pictures of the body and and confirmed that the hit to the back of the head is what injured her enough to die.

So I am very busy and very excited about it. At the catering place we did four separate parties yesterday, a retirement banquet, two baby showers, and a graduation party. So it was a loonng day and I was quite exhausted later on that night.

On a very sad note one of my favorite cousins is moving six states away this weekend He signed a contract in the real world for two full years. I’m very glad I haven’t reached the real world yet but I hate to see my close friends enter it. Ahhh… Life.

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I like the Kid’s Definiton of SUMMER Way Better.

So… tomorrow is my last final for the semester and with it goes the end of my junior year. I have one week before the chaos of my summer starts and let me just say it might be fun but not in the way of a student. I start my internship at the corners office a week from next Monday and it should be very interesting. I will be working four 8-5 hour days a week and during that time I will be on call any time of the day if there is a crime scene, a car accident, or an autopsy that needs done. That I might add… is actually quite exciting.

My job… at the catering company wasn’t supposed to start till after may 17th but they need me this weekend because of the hectic mother’s day dinner that will be going on so I’ve been scheduled to work my first few days in complete chaos. yeah. But its okay because one of my good friends works there (which is how I got the job) and she said she will help me when I get confused.

Tuesday is a big white water rafting trip that many of my college friends are attending so we are all getting together at my house the night before since I live closest to the river we are going to. That will be Very Fun and I am quite excited for it.

On Wednesday I will be at the Community College Bookstore because financial comes down for the summer that day and they called me into work. Geez, I never get a break. And I’m sure once I go in on Wednesday they will want me on Thursday too.

The benefit for breast cancer is on Saturday which I’ll be glad to get out of the way after all these months of planning. And I’m sure that her family will be very excited when they find out about it.

But anyway as hectic as my summer will be I am looking forward to it. I am looking forward to the money, to the autopsies and crime scene investigations, and mostly I am looking forward to my vacations and hopefully the hot boys that I am destined to come into contact with while I am traveling around.

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Hey… Want some Chili?

The chemist in me couldn’t resist. So if you’re my arched nemesis, I have something for you. hahahaha.

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